forget me

i hate everything right now. i don;t want to eat, i can't sleep, i don't want to go to work, i can't keep my mind rational. i'm losing my shit. this was supposed to be easy. 6 weeks is all it was supposed to last. i'm half way through and i want to just curl up in bed and not get up till that day comes. i can't remember being this lonley in a very long time. even when he was out sleeping with every whore in town i wasn't this fucked up. now i know he's with me. i know he wants to stay. but being away from him so much has me fucked up. i don't trust him anymore. but he's done nothing to lose my trust. i think i've come unhinged.